Bad Mommy...

As I've written before, I've spent much of this pregnancy with a "been there, done that" kind of attitude. I've found myself forgetting for a moment that i'm pregnant, and i'm often so busy chasing after my busy toddler that I ignore my body's signals to slow down. I feel like all of that is just par for the course when you're on pregnancy number two, and I havn't really felt much guilt about it. But then last night I woke up at 3:30am, and was hit with my biggest wave of pregnancy guilt yet: I forgot to go for my glucose screening.

Oops. Big oops actually. Especially because this is apparently the second time i've forgotten. When I went for my well baby checkup last week, the nurse asked if i'd had my sugar test yet. I hadn't, and in fact didn't even know I was supposed to have done it yet. She said that my chart indicated the Dr called it in after my last appointment. A month ago. Ok, that one i'll let slide, could happen to anyone. No big deal. The Dr came in, and she also brought it up, mentioning that I could go right to the lab when I left if I had an hour. I certainly did have an hour, my mom was staying with Stephanie and i'm sure she would have had no problem staying longer. But...I knew Stephanie was in for a nap, and I was eager to get home and spend that precious hour in my apartment relaxing. I hate even writing that, because as anyone who has done the glucose test knows, you get to sit for an hour and...relax. There's a TV in the lab waiting room, and lots of magazines for me to read and catch up on all the celeb gossip i've missed out on over the past 17 months. Yet, I didn't go. I went home, because I just didn't feel like doing it then. Such a bad mommy. But I swore to myself i'd go the next day. I then proceeded to completely forget about the entire thing until last night.

I just lay there thinking, oh my gosh, I am the worst mommy to this poor little unborn baby. When I was pregnant with his sister I never once missed out on any blood work, procedure, or ultrasound. Since both the lab and the ultrasound office are attached to my Dr's office, I would head straight there after any appointment that mentioned I needed something done. I was on top of it all. Not this time. (It really pains me to say this, but this actually isn't the first time i've put off bloodwork this pregnancy. I was chastised at the beginning for failing to get the comprehensive blood draw that you need. But that time, once they reminded me I hadn't done it yet, I went right there. And proceeded to pass out, because I hadn't been prepared for blood work, had a raging head cold, and had eaten a microscopic breakfast. But that's another story.)

Of course, i'd love to tell you all that I resolved the problem today, and went right in for the glucose thing this morning. But I didn't. I resumed my nannying job yesterday, and needed to be there at 8:30 this morning. Tomorrow we have a scheduled playdate, and I have no child care option for Stephanie, so that's out too. Thursday is going to be the day, for real! It's on my calendar, and as soon as I finish writing this it's going in my phone, with a reminder set up. I will get this glucose test done, and i'm resolving to do a better job keeping up with things for this baby. Speaking of which, I was supposed to make an appointment for a 3D ultrasound yesterday. Oops again. Adding that into my phone too.

I really hope that my punishment for all these transgressions does not involve failing this glucose test and finding out I have gestational diabetes...

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